Today my father decided to bury my brother's ashes. And place his gravestone beside our grandparents gravestone.
My father did not call me, asked me or invite me.
I received a text message out of the blue. A photograph of my brother's gravestone and this:
"Sorry u couldn't make it."
Extremely grateful that i was sitting with my therapist when that text message came in. .
Trying to process all sorts of feelings of anger, frustration, sadness. Grieving for my brother who took his life 5 months ago.
According to the 4 agreements: Don't take things personally. Don't make assumptions....
Buddah - How gracefully you can let go of things not meant for you.
A part of me is filled with so much pain and hurt, because my brother is gone but also because of the lack of communication & empathy from my father.
I spoke with my dad this morning around 9:00 a.m. and he told me that he was headed to visit family in that area, but he never mentioned his true intention and what he was going to do today: bury my brothers ashes.
I'm trying to have compassion & Honor him in the place that he is in and the way he is grieving.
I can't imagine how hard it must have been for my dad, to bury his son today... and maybe it was so hard that it was something that my dad needed to do with my aunt (his sister) by his side.
. I made an assumption: I believe that family comes together in both good times and sorrow. Real family is there to support and uplift, nurture. I think I TRULY realized today that true family does not have to be related by blood. .
Im so grateful to the chosen family - dear beautiful friends who have surrounded Gali & me with love today and given us their time and love, compassion, hugs. .
#radiatelove #faithhopelove #thegreatestoftheseislove
#surrendering #heavystuff #introspection #letitbe
#chosenfamily #gratitude #macysurrender