Losing my Father in Law on New Years day was a complete shock to us.
When you have known someone and cared for and admired them for so long, you are never ready for a goodbye.
Do you agree?
We thought he had years left.
No one knows when it is their time.
For the last 7 months I have had a lot of trials, sorrow and tribulation.
Family illness and their hospitalisation, i was sick and also suffered a burn after Christmas
I have learnt however not to cry ' why me, oh not more crap coming to me'. That will not solve anything.💜
Yes i have cried tears, I seek laughter and joy where I can.
I had a social media detox as i need to fuel my own engine to get through all that is going on.
It is important to always remain authentic.
Even if We can encourage someone to reach out,we must help others.
I am learning to seek the light, no matter how small it has been flickering.
Complaining just adds to our troubles.
I wont sit here and pretend i am all smiles and life is great all the time.
I just am so happy for the love i have received in here, with my friends and a few colleagues and family.
I do not give to receive as i am not that person.
There are a few people who i have given time and love to and been a listening ear to who are not here for me at all.
I am not at all sorry as i am learning to focus on the here and now.
I am grateful for the loving support of those who are here and whose words encourage me to keep going.
My friend, whatever we all are going through, know it soon will pass.
We don't always get the end result we desire but we need to 'Trust The Process'. Keep going, one step and one day at a time.
Gratitute is my #superpower.
You are not alone, reach out for help and use your network, be it your doctor, neighbour, colleague or social media friend. You can share with me too, we all can help each other so feel free to message me💜
Sending you all London love💜💜💜