I took this picture during a late June trip to NYC. It was brutally hot and humid and I thought I was doing well on the whole ego-eradication journey. My favorite and least favorite part of this quest is how many layers and hidden folds there are. Just when you think you’ve got it, you realize you’re worse than ever. .
Working in the fields of bodywork, birthwork and general spiritual advisement I have to find the perfect balance of how much confidence I bring to the table and how much of my personality I need to leave at the door.
There is truly no room for the practitioner’s ego in the labor and birth room, on the massage mat or at the tarot table and I absolutely fail at this daily. Maybe only a little bit and maybe my clients don’t notice, but I do. And my friends notice. .
I have lost a lot of friendships this year, including the one I was in NYC for when I snapped this photo. A few days ago after really questioning a decision, my most long-standing bestie told me that “the path is where we lose people.” I understand this to be true, and on any given day might say the same to someone else. .
It’s hard to identify the line between stubborn egoic pride and essential protective choices for our spiritual and physical health. And then to walk that line. And then to set a boundary on that line. .
One of my biggest hesitations in even starting a professional Instagram or any sort of interfacing with the public as a professional and a practitioner is knowing that there are people out there who have strong opinions about whether I even have the right to be doing this work let alone telling the world. To this I say- I will curb my ego, if just for the day while walking alongside my fellows, tonight I will dive into the deep shadows of truth and ask the real questions and try to not fear the answers I receive. .
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